If you haven't read "Will You Enjoy Me? PART ONE" go check that out because this blog won't matter as much without it.
So here I was I'd had an incredible few hours where I really felt the presence of God in the room with me, talking with me, molding me, teaching me, showing me, changing me... It is an experience like no other I've ever had before.
I ended the last blog with telling you some about that night and how we were created to be enjoyed by God. Not only are we created to be enjoyed by Him, but we are created to enjoy Him. Here is an excerpt from the end of the last blog and then we'll start again from there.
"Christ paid a price for His bride, He wants to be with her, He enjoys us! He likes me. He likes spending time with me, He likes watching me flourish and grow, He loves when I come to Him and admit my faults and my hurts, my aches my pains, my concerns. He likes to watch me coach because I love it. He enjoys me living life and enjoying the life that He gave me and the truth is He wants me to enjoy Him as much as He enjoys me."
At about 5:15 that morning I finally laid back down to sleep. I had spent a night in prayer, worship, and learning. I'd even made a phone call and sent a few emails to people for different reasons that I had felt impressed on during that time with the Lord. As I laid my head on my pillow, I thanked God for that night, I asked for strength for the following BUSY day, and the last thing I remember saying as I fell asleep was this "God I want to enjoy You, I want to know what that means, I want to know what it feels like, show me that this is real"
As awesome as that night was and as much as I was thankful for it and I did enjoy it, I still didn't quite comprehend this enjoy God thing. I know you could say I'm slow, but it's hard for me to say I get that I can daily enjoy God the way I daily enjoy my best friend, a romantic relationship, a parent etc. and if God was saying that I could have that then I want it. Yes, gasp with extreme disappointment, but like I said, I'm changed, I've found something new for me, and I'm going to put it all out there in hopes that someone else will catch on to this...
I am and have been a passionate Christian. When I was 15 years old I caught on fire with enthusiasm for God. It has been a journey of some ups some downs some successes and some failures, but I have been passionate about Him since that point when God spoke to me as a teenager while I was drunk in my bed after a party. I love Him. I hear Him speak and I know His voice, I spend time with Him, read the Word, do missions, love on people and LOVE SHARING THE GOSPEL OF JESUS CHRIST... but I was all that and I still wasn't enjoying God everyday of my life.
I woke up at 6 a.m. to head to a training with Redeemed ministries to help rescue women in the Houston area out of sex trafficking. I was just driving down the road, early, sleepy, and excited about the training.
I'm not too sure the best way to explain what happened and some may chalk it up to charasmatic emotion and if you want to devalue it to that level, it's definitely your choice. As I drove I wasn't worshiping, I wasn't praying, I was just driving and something hit me like a brick. It was this overwhelming reality of the love of God for me. It so impressed me internally that it had external effects. I began to weep, uncontrollably weep, as I could barely mutter words of "Jesus, thank you". I had to pull over. You would think it'd stop, it didn't, I cried more, then after crying, I laughed. When all of this was finished I just sat to listen.
God spoke to my Spirit. "Will you enjoy me like I enjoy you?"
I've read the Beatitudes a billion times, but as I read them not long after the experience in my car this stuck out to me.
"Blessed are you who hunger now, for you shall be satisfied. Blessed are you who weep now, for you shall laugh".
We've all heard the scripture that the Joy of the Lord is our strength and I think we all know the reason that it must be our strength is because God is never changing. Our joy will be constant if we find our joy in Him. My joy will be constant because I know that Christ died for me, so that I could have relationship with God. A relationship where He enjoys me and I enjoy Him!
Check out this passage of scripture from Psalm 16:
8 I have set the LORD always before me;
because he is at my right hand, I shall not be shaken.
9Therefore my heart is glad, and my whole being rejoices;
my flesh also dwells secure.
10For you will not abandon my soul to Sheol,
or let your holy one see corruption.
11You make known to me the path of life;
in your presence there is fullness of joy;
at your right hand are pleasures forevermore.
WOW. In His presence is fullness of joy, if in His presence is fullness of joy doesn't that mean that I should enJOY Him?
I think I'm going to leave you with this thought. It looks like this will be longer than 2 blogs... part 3 to follow when I have time.