The journey leading to Sudan has felt like digging for days knowing you'll eventually find water. There is light at the end of the tunnel even when it seems miles away. I discussed in my post "What Are You Doing Jessika" why I am going to Sudan. It truly boils down to, obedience. God told me to go to Sudan before I understood what going to Sudan meant!!! Obviously Sudan is in the midst of war right now, there is a lot going on, and for my family and friends it is hard to understand why I have to go there rather than, well, anywhere else in the world (lol)! The amount of faith, money, planning, road blocks etc. of this trip has been more than any of my previous ones. And yet, there is light.
I find my heart yearning to be there, now, rather than in two months. Who yearns to be in a war torn country?... I'm used to yearning to be back in Botswana, where I can see the kids, worship in village church, hug my missionary friends, hold babies from Lorato House of Love. I'm used to yearning to be in Rwanda where I can walk through the village, telling the truth of the gospel on the corners, passing out candy to the village kids, speaking in churches, and loving the people. It's normal to yearn to be somewhere that you miss, places that have captured my heart and taught me about what really matters in life, places where I encountered the Lord and seen Him move mightily, places where I was safe, but why do I yearn for this place I've never been. This place ravaged by war, where I'll have no contact with friends, family, or anyone I know for two weeks, a place of eating corn paste, bucket showers, and sleeping on the ground?
Last night I dreamed of dirt roads. Nothing specific, nothing extraordinary, just long dirt roads. No people, no things, just roads. I woke up wanting to be there.
This past week God did a miracle in regards to this trip and it was just another confirmation that I'm in His will and not Jessika's dream land. I also found out that after Sudan, while in Uganda, I'll be able to minister on a university campus which I'm super excited about. Things are coming together and though I've been toiling, there is light.
I leave for two weeks in Sudan on June 27th, I fly out of Sudan on July 14th to spend one week ministering in Uganda. I return to the states on July 23rd. It's only three weeks, but it's three weeks that I know are going to be life altering.
Be Blessed, J. Tate