Yesterday I came out of prayer just feeling so grateful for who God is and what He has done in my life. It was so big on my heart that I texted Maegan and said, "Did you ever think 10 years ago that we'd be where we are?". You see ten years ago Maegan and I were not friends. I was a freshman in high school and my life was a mess. I'd been running away from God because things had gotten hard. So, I thought He didn't care about me and if He didn't care about me, I wasn't going to care about Him. I partied, cussed like a sailor, lived selfishly, and pretty much did whatever I wanted. I still knew that He was God and so I still prayed and even went to youth group, but I wasn't in any way trying to live for Him and I had no problem telling Him that either. Pretty big mess huh? Then there was Maegan. Maegan was that kid in the youth group. You know the one raised in church, homeschooled, she always won bible trivia, and pretty much thought I was a spawn of satan because of the choice words that would come out of my mouth without regards to where I was or who was around me.
Maegan's response to my text was, "not even close, not even remotely close".
Yesterday was October 24th, 2012, exactly 9 years after October 24th, 2003. Why does that matter at all? Well, 9 years ago on October 24th, 2003 God spoke to me and I have never been the same. Most of you have heard my testimony of how He spoke to me that night and said "I set before you life and death, choose life". Little did I know that was a scripture directly out of Deuteronomy 30. I decided right then that I'd serve Him and as I've been told before I'm an all or nothing person, so God got my all. For the last 9 years I've continued to grow in passion for Him, desire for Him, and love for Him.
When I take a few minutes to think about what my life could have been like I become so overwhelmed with gratefulness. Who knows where I would be if He hadn't pursued after me, in spite of my defiant idolatrous attitude. Gees we serve such a loving God. He truly is faithful even when we are faithless (2 Timothy 2:13) On my hardest days, on my worst days, I still know my worst days with Jesus are far better than my best day would be without Him. He takes our lives and transforms them into something far better than what we can imagine.
10 years ago I wouldn't have ever ever ever thought that I would be serving God the way I am today. Even 9 years ago as God began to transform my heart I didn't think that I would be where I am today. Each year, each month, each day, I've seen God continue to pursue after my heart and do more in my life in 25 years than I thought possible in a lifetime. I'm so thankful for a God that pursues, I'm so thankful for a Savior that counted it all joy to endure the cross, I'm so grateful for people around me that were Godly examples and encouraged me in my walk, oh what an incredible 9 years it has been.
Be Blessed, J. Tate