My soul waits only upon God and silently submits to Him; for my hope and expectation are from Him. (Ps. 62:5)
God help me. Have you ever read scripture and it stabs you so deep in the gut that you almost feel like you need to get saved again? As I read Psalm 62 this morning I was so convicted. You're probably reading that scripture thinking, sounds like every other Psalm. Lol. I reckon it does, but let's rip into it a bit.
My soul waits ONLY upon God. Your soul is your mind, will, and emotions. Right there it is saying that my emotions, my mind, my will or actions, are based ONLY upon God. Based solely upon God's Word (The Bible), God's words spoken to me in prayer, or by prompting of the Holy Spirit. Now why does this hit me so hard? Two main reasons, I reflect over the last few weeks and my emotional life has been a roller coaster, not determined by the Word of the Lord, but rather by whatever circumstance, or human words and actions, I saw in the moment. Second reason is because for a YEAR now, I've been telling youth "Do not let your circumstances dictate your emotions and do not let your emotions dictate your actions". This scripture is saying that very thing. FATHER MY SOUL WAITS ONLY UPON YOU! I am not moved by anything, BUT YOU!
Then He takes it farther and "silently submits to Him". Oh that one got me. Not only will my soul wait on you, wait on your Word, wait on your Holy Spirit to guide, but in this process MY MOUTH WILL STAY SHUT! I will not allow my mouth to express the fifty thousand thoughts of doubt rolling around in my head. I will not allow my mouth to reason about what I AM FEELING AND THINKING. No, no, no... my soul will wait upon God alone and my mouth will stay shut until He shows me what to say. Boy, how different things might go if we could just grasp that first part of the verse. "For my hope and expectation are from Him". God I know that my life relies on You and only You. Man cannot plot my course, for my hope and expectation for all good things in my life come from You and YOU ALONE. It does not matter what man thinks I should, could, would, do, but rather it's all about YOU. You alone determine my path because my soul waits on you. My soul waits on your Word and your direction. I rely on You.
Verse 6 says He only is my Rock and my Salvation; He is my Defense and my Fortress, I shall not be moved. God alone will be my rock. He alone can save. He alone will defend me and protect me and guide me. I will not be moved by circumstances of man, but rather will wait upon His leading while I dwell in His fortress. Verse 7 "With God rests my salvation and my glory; He is my Rock of unyielding strength and impenetrable hardness and my refuge is in God!". YOU ALONE OH GOD, YOU ALONE ARE MY STRENGTH, MY HELP, MY REFUGE!!!! I will not look to my own reasoning, my own emotions, or my own mind, I will not look to man to show me what to do, to promote me, to inspire me, to guide me, YOU ALONE ARE MY HELP! And don't even get me started on how we have all the help we need in the sweet Holy Spirit which dwells on the inside of us!!!!
"Trust in, lean on, rely on, and have confidence in Him at all times, you people; pour out your hearts before Him. God is a refuge for us." (Ps. 62:8)
Trust in, lean on, rely on, and have confidence in Him at all times. This is faith. Faith is saying God I believe your Word, I believe what you told me in prayer, I believe the unctioning of Your Precious Holy Spirit, over what circumstances look like, over what my "feelings" are telling me, over even what people say. I trust in you at ALL TIMES... and my soul will WAIT ON YOU ALONE. I will stand in faith, believing You, above all outside voices.
That's not always easy to do, is it? If we can come to that place of faith, so trusting Him, that we don't allow our emotions or our mouths to negate what He has said in His Word, what He has said to you in prayer, imagine how much grief, stress, pressure, etc would be gone. What you see with your eyes and what you hear with your ears should not move you. We shall tell our emotions to line up with the very Word of God, and if we can't seem to speak what He has said in His Word then we should learn to keep our mouth shut.
This morning, I am convicted, but I am comforted. It is not my responsibility to choose my path, it is not my responsibility to promote myself or even defend myself. God is our refuge, He is our strength, He is our guide, He is my fortress, He is my defense, HE ALONE IS MY ROCK AND MY SALVATION... All of the pressure is off and like a sheep with a trustworthy shepherd, we just need to follow.
Be Blessed, J. Tate