There's a temptation we humans have to try and have our needs met by what sometimes feels like a more tangible source.I was in worship nd a song came on that many of us know, "I exalt thee, I exalt thee O Lord." As I sang I had a realization that I was making a declaration not just for this moment in worship, but for my life. I was saying to Jesus, I exalt thee, I honor you above all things. I respect you above all persons. I place you above all desires of my heart. You get first place. I trust you more than anything or anyone else. Jesus you are my source.
It's amazing how easily we humans succumb to allowing other things to become a source. It's an easy temptation when you do missions to feel like your donors are your source. Those are the ones buying you the plane tickets, feeding the kids, and helping to ensure the visions God has given you are able to be completed financially. It's an easy temptation in ministry to feel like your source is those who follow you or support you. Did they like the sermon? Did they donate to the ministry? As a pastor did they show up to the midweek prayer meeting or pay their tithes? Are they going to invite you back to preach again? Do they encourage you? Do they feel like you do a good job? Will they follow you even in unfamiliar territory? What about your job is that your source? It pays the bills. It gives you the paycheck. It's how you keep everyone fed and clothed. It's super easy to think your spouse or other significant people in your life are your source. Will they love you unconditionally? Will they stay by your side? Will they support you? Will they always have your back and be loyal? Will they support your dreams? Are they trustworthy?
We begin to look to have our intimacy fulfilled in people. We can look to have our financial needs met by others or by jobs. We can have our value determined by whether or not we achieve our goals.
As we continued to sing I kept telling Jesus, I exalt you above all others, there truly is none like you. There is none who fulfills my desires like You. There is none who can provide like you. There is none who encourages me like you. There is none whose thoughts I value more than Yours. As I just told Him that He was my source of life I thought about another song I love. "You never ask that I earn your affection, I could never earn something that's free, I never have to fight for your attention, Your eyes are ever upon me"
I began to wonder what it would be like if He could actually say this back to us. "Jessika... you don't ask that I earn your affection, Jessika I never have to fight for your attention"
What if we truly allowed God to be our Source for any and all things? What if He didn't have to earn your affection, what if He didn't have to fight for our attention?
The Truth is that He is our ultimate source. He is the One who was and is and is to come. He is the exceedingly great reward. He is the one worth living for. Circumstances will change, jobs, goals, people, all of those will change through seasons of our lives, but He will forever be our constant. He will forever be the Source of true love, true intimacy, true provision, true affirmation, true value. Be Blessed,
Woe to those who go down to Egypt for help and rely on horses, who trust in chariots because they are many and in horsemen because they are very strong, but do not look to the Holy One of Israel or consult the Lord! (Isaiah 31:1)