I speak a lot about falling in love with Jesus. It’s one of my deepest passions and also greatest convictions. Jesus. A Savior. A Redeemer. A Friend. But also the head over heels in love groom for His Bride.
I have a dear friend who challenges me on almost everything I believe and teach. (I’m truly thankful for this) As she’s read the things I write and listened to some of my messages she had the audacity to say,
“That all sounds good Jess, but have you ever actually taught someone how to fall in love with Him?”
We launched into conversation after conversation of what it actually looks like to fall in love with this God man, Jesus. I mean, how do you explain to someone how to fall in love? Heck it was only a few years ago that I even learned that I could fall in love with Him. (Most of you have heard the story from S. Sudan, so I’ll spare you the time, but if you're new you can find it here)
My friend has one of those relationships with her husband that girls look at longingly. They’re two attractive people who no doubt would give the world in exchange for the other person’s happiness. Occasionally they’re that nauseating cute, but mostly they’re just that belly laughing fun couple that understands what it’s like to be madly in love with your best friend. I doubt there is a single thing she keeps from her husband and vice versa. I watch them, how they communicate, how they share, how they do life together and apart, and I think if anyone knows about falling in love… it’s her.
But what about when you’re falling in love with Someone that you can’t see with your natural eye?
After our conversations I began to think about her question. Maybe my core life message has actually just been something that sounded real good? I believe in my exclamation “IT’S ALL ABOUT JESUS” as much as I believe in my name. I believe that I have fallen in love with Him, so have I spent years encouraging people to do something without ever giving them any type of frame work in order to achieve it?
Ouch. Big... Ouch.
I’m going to be writing a few blogs on falling in love with Jesus. What it looks like. Why you do it. How you do it. I’ll be real and honest and try to keep these as vulnerable, upfront, and helpful as possible.
I’ll end this with a short story.
After God basically told me that I was not in love with Him in Sudan, I went to my tent and I wept. I wept because of what He said. I wept because I knew it was true. I wept because I had spent years trying to be His “best kid.” I wept because I was in a war zone and I thought that proved my love to Him.
But mainly I wept because I was faced with an earth shattering reality.
There were people who were in love with Jesus, and I had no idea how to fall in love with Him.
It’s okay if this language is new to you. It’s okay if you’ve heard me say this before and it’s just frustrated you (I’m sorry). It’s okay if this has felt all together impossible. It’s okay.
Let’s start over.
My name is Jessika and it’s nice to meet you. I love writing and speaking about falling in love with Jesus and I’d love to spend some time with you exploring how that is possible in your own life. This is not reserved for the orphans in Africa, it’s not reserved for Mother Theresa or Mama Heidi Baker. It does not take some unique gifting or calling. There’s only one prerequisite-
An open heart. If you’ll come open and hungry. I believe we can go deeper than any of us has ever gone before.
I'm in the midst of my busiest travel months, so these won't necessarily come back to back, but I will be writing a part 2 soon!